LIFE GOES ON!! :) :(

LIFE GOES ON!!

Yes it seriously does go on.. even when you are the happiest person on this earth or whether your heart is ripping apart...LIFE GOES ON! I always thought I had my anchor, my safest place in the world, but today I realized that my anchor was long lost. I don't have a have a place to run to on my darkest of days.. the shadows of the past would always haunt me through the times so rough.
I was once told that change is the only thing constant in this world, but then I wasn't ready to accept the facts of life, I had my fairytale where the end's always a joyous one. But today I know that if the happy days are there, they would be followed by the low one's and vice verse. I was told that today you have people who care and love you, but tomorrow all of it would be gone, and it happened. I'm left with only a heartache so very painful and memories so very loved. People surround me, but I find myself deserted. I hear noises but no words register in here- "in my heart". The nights are sleepless and days are restless. Was I really worth all this? Maybe... maybe not.. but life goes on...
I hope for a sunshine and dream of a change that favors me, because i know that no matter what LIFE GOES ON!! :) :(

Dedicated to the people I lost and found through the path of life!

ये दर्द कैसा?

ये दर्द कैसा मैंने है ले लिया
जब से दिल ये तुझको है दे दिया
आंसू छिप से गए है झूटी मुस्कुराहटों  में
और जो ग़म है इस दिल का वो किसी को न दिखने पाया है
न जाने दर्द कैसा मैंने है ले लिया
जब से दिल ये तुझको है दे दिया

अल्फाजों की कमी पड़ जाती है
जब भी इस दिल को याद तेरी तडपती है
होने लगी है यारी अंधेरों से, दोस्ती की है मैंने सन्नाटों से
और पल में दुश्मनी हो गयी है दुनिया वालों से
न जाने दर्द कैसा मैंने है ले लिया
जब से दिल ये तुझको है दे दिया

खामोश सी रातें प्यारी लगती हैं
मगर आपकी चुप्पियाँ हमे डंसती हैं
एक नशा सा हमे है हो गया
ये जहा हमसे खफा है हो गया
न जाने दर्द कैसा मैंने है ले लिया
जब से दिल ये तुझको है दे दिया!

My Soul got Stuck

The day I saw you my soul got stuck with you
I couldn’t help but think you were life for me
The day your eyes encountered with mine
I couldn’t help but drown in deep
The day you smiled at me
I couldn’t help but think you liked me
The day you talked to me
I couldn’t help but think you were for me
Soon came the day when I wanted you with me
But you told it could never be we….

Then I thought of the day when my soul got stuck
Now I curse myself for those thoughts
Then I realized your eyes never shone for me
For now I think how could I drown in them
Then I realized your smiles were never meant for me
For now I know you hated me
And you could never be with me
I wonder how these thoughts seemed so relevant to me
But today these thoughts and your memories haunt me
Because the day I saw you my soul got stuck with you  I know, I know this one is truly lame, but I wrote it when I was 13, I mean what else do you expect... Phew..never mind..I deserve to be laughed upon so go ahead people :P :P

A million in ONE

"Life is strange, and so are the people in this world."

We come across hundreds and thousands of people in our life, but have you wondered why only a few of them hold a place in your heart forever? With people comes a varying range of personality type. Well, honestly speaking I do not believe that people posses a particular personality, I think each of us have a number of personalities.

Let me tell about a friend of mine. She basically is an year or two younger than me but at times I see a way too matured side of hers, I have known her for years but still ask me what kind of a personality she actually is, I get stumped. She loves chocolates, wafers, junk food, and what not and at the same time she can lecture me about ethics, traditions and spirituality. God only knows whether she is a teen or a granny :P
I see her, and think I truly have known the taste of one dish served at the royal dinner. There is always something that keeps me from getting bored of her company, topics of discussion flow in free, arguments end in settlements, fights end in cuddling, games end in dispute yet a precious golden thread binds me and her together, FOREVER!

I guess I have always failed to notice that in her I find a million people. She comes to me as 'A MILLION IN ONE'

The Road Not Taken..

Life almost always gives you two choices. Somethings you love about the first choice and some things about the other. But we are made to choose one, its hard to leave one, to leave what you could have on that road, you aren't even certain where the road you choose will lead you to yet you are made to choose.

I closed my eyes and let the tears wet my pillow. I had no idea as to why the hell did I cry, was I grieving at the loss of the choice I hadn't made or was I wanting to hold on to both of my roads, pause life and not have to do what I did.   I knew that my road would define what I have tomorrow in life and no matter how much I wanted to come back and live the day of my choice I wouldn't. I guess I always let go what I am supposed to hold on, it has I think become a part of my nature. The road not taken calls me blinded, I guess I am, for to leave it, even if the road has a hoarding of I will be just running parallel to YOU, YOU just need to cross over. 

I hate making choices, why can't life be only a single option, why do we have to choose when we know we can't live without the either of the options? The choice was like choosing what you love more 'a burger or a pizza'. I know this was a lame one but seriously who on earth can choose between rains or a bright sunny day? Doesn't a farmer need both of them? 

I know you people must be wondering why the hell she keeps throwing questions at me, so lemme tell you people I'm just a girl next door, am I not supposed to be this puzzled, see another question, yeah right let me get the hell outta here before you people start throwing rotten eggs and tomatoes, bye guys and gals!